A Change Will Do You Good

Saw this on Facebook and had to share

Sat, 26 Jan 2013 09:11:34 -0500

Saw this on Facebook and had to share

Woke Up Today Sore

Sat, 26 Jan 2013 08:57:22 -0500

And I’m pretty damn happy about it. Nothing too major, but at least I know that my muscles are reacting to the weights, and I will make some progress. Back to the gym this weekend!

Workout #2 of the Week - DONE!

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 21:30:20 -0500

Did weights today. I’ll probably be sore tomorrow, but that’s ok. Felt good to be back.

recipes.sparkpeople.com

Thu, 17 Jan 2013 18:52:11 -0500

recipes.sparkpeople.com:

Burl made this recipe last night after searching some sites for recipes with ingredients we had in the house. It was really fantastic, and only 7 WW Plus point.

Less Than 30 Minutes

Thu, 10 Jan 2013 20:33:28 -0500

Until “Grey’s Anatomy”

I need this badly this week!

All of a sudden I looked up and I had 84 followers. I’m not sure that I have 84 real...

Wed, 09 Jan 2013 21:45:46 -0500

All of a sudden I looked up and I had 84 followers. I’m not sure that I have 84 real followers, but I’m pretty sure that I have at least 20 real ones that aren’t my family. And for you, I’m writing this post.

So, I’ve been gone for a while. I’m not sure why. Well, maybe I do know why, but let’s get to that in a minute.

So, what’s been up? Well, from a health perspective, nothing much. I am still within 5 pounds of the weight that I was a year ago. It was basically a year ago when I stopped working out on a regular basis. Probably no correlation there. Yeah, right.

I posted a couple of days ago about emotional eating. I’m actually not a huge emotional eater. Except for chocolate. I tend to grab the minatures that they tend to have all over the office when I’m having trouble dealing with something. Lately that happens a lot.

I think that I’m pretty safe posting here, and if I’m not - fuck it. I’m beyond caring at this point. I don’t think that anyone at work knows who I am on Tumblr, and if they do, oh well. What has been going on in my life aside from the normal life changing events (like a daughter getting married and another one leaving for college), is that the company that I work for, the company that I have invested the last years of my life in, the company where I expected I to spend my last day before I retire someday, was involved in a “merger” in July and as a result, my company has been stolen. Right out from under all of us. With this new huge company they are looking for “synergies” (GOD, I HATE THAT FUCKING WORD), and my company is effectively being closed.

All that bullshit that was going on during the election about giving tax breaks to small businesses so that they would hire more workers? Just that - BULLSHIT. Bottom line is that if the business owners want to make more money, they synergize. They consolidate. The owners get bigger paychecks and bigger bonuses and 170 people lose their jobs.

What makes this worse for me personally is that I’m actually one of the “lucky” ones. I’ve been in the know much longer than most, and I’ve been offered a position with the new company, in a new city. I should be happy and grateful, and to some degree I am, but mostly I just feel sick. I feel sick for the 160 other people that have poured their hearts into this company that won’t have a place to go to. I feel sick that no one has even bothered to tell them yet, even though this decision was made months ago. I feel sick that I’m pretty sure they are hoping that a percentage of our employees will quit so they won’t ever have to pay out the crappy severance package that they are dishing out.

So, for the last several months I have been working on “integration” and “transition” teams. Two more bullshit words that I’ve heard more than I ever want to again in my life. I’ve been putting together 1) fantasy budgets for appearances 2) real budgets that end before the end of the budget year. I’ve been asked to provide lists of when people should be let go and who needs to stay for the “good of the business”. I’ve been training my new boss who didn’t know anything about my business until she started working with me. I’ve been miserable.

I was talking with my husband tonight, crying again for about the 5th time today, and I did hit on something. I’m holding on too tight to what was. At this point though, I don’t have anything career-wise to channel myself into. My new position isn’t starting yet, and without that, I’m just sitting here holding on to what is familiar and safe.

[When I go to church (which has also dramatically stopped being a routine in the last year), I’m always impressed when the priest starts his sermon with some rather random thought and then talks for 20 minutes about wandering subjects and then comes full circle and hits you in the face with a variation of his original thought]

So, I’m holding on to what is familiar and safe. Isn’t that kind of what we ALL do when we struggle to eat healthier, work out more, make a CHANGE? Why do we cling to what we know is making us unhealthy, even when we strive to be different?

I don’t know. Just like I don’t have the answer for why things are happening at my company the way the are, I also don’t have the answer for why I can’t seem to get off the recliner and back to the gym. But I know I have to; I’ve changed before, and I can do it again.

Thanks for hanging with me and reading my ramble. I’m not sure what the point was except that I haven’t been able to talk to anyone else about this except my family, and I’m pretty sure they are all tired of hearing about it.

Photo

Wed, 09 Jan 2013 19:00:45 -0500

Currently eating these like candy right now :)

Wed, 09 Jan 2013 14:55:50 -0500

Currently eating these like candy right now :)

Do you do marathons?

Mon, 07 Jan 2013 13:04:27 -0500

sodamnrelatable:

Me: Yes, all the time, which show?

Love this!

Watched this tonight with my husband and daughter. Husband had...

Sat, 05 Jan 2013 23:13:59 -0500

Watched this tonight with my husband and daughter. Husband had never seen it before. FUCKING AMAZING!!!!!!!!!

Made my favorite dinner tonight. NY Strip and Risotto. 4 oz....

Sat, 05 Jan 2013 23:12:02 -0500

Made my favorite dinner tonight. NY Strip and Risotto. 4 oz. only of Ny Strip, Mushrooms and Onions sauteed in wine and seasonings, and risotto. Can’t be any better.

Been watching Lost for about 2 weeks now. Almost at the end of Season 2. It’s amazing how lost...

Sat, 05 Jan 2013 17:53:04 -0500

Been watching Lost for about 2 weeks now. Almost at the end of Season 2. It’s amazing how lost :) you can get in something like this, or even a really good book.

But I should be out getting some exercise.

After going back and forth on 50 pointless emails about budgets, I quickly downed three pieces of...

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 10:41:45 -0500

After going back and forth on 50 pointless emails about budgets, I quickly downed three pieces of chocolate.

Ok, maybe stress eating is more if a problem for me than I thought!

Joining the New Years revolution !

Tue, 01 Jan 2013 20:32:42 -0500

Posting on Tumblr helps ME. I’m going to remember that.

I’ve missed you all.

Facebook Down? Check this for how to get on.

Mon, 10 Dec 2012 18:36:57 -0500

Facebook Down? Check this for how to get on.:

asariilaos:

Facebook has been encountering some DNS issues this afternoon that are making it unavailable to many users. The social network’s Domain Name System servers are not directing folks to its site, causing it to appear as if the network is down completely.

]]>feelingoftemptation replied to your post:Facebook I cant see any pictures on facebook right...

Mon, 10 Dec 2012 18:19:09 -0500

feelingoftemptation replied to your post:Facebook

I cant see any pictures on facebook right now

It won’t even load on any of my devices. It says webpage not found!

Truly a sign that they Myans might have been right :)

Facebook

Mon, 10 Dec 2012 18:10:11 -0500

How do you find out if Facebook is down, when your normal way to handle stuff like this is to post on Facebook to find out???

Well, you go on Tumblr of course!

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Wed, 31 Oct 2012 20:51:31 -0400

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Wed, 31 Oct 2012 20:42:07 -0400

Grey's

Thu, 27 Sep 2012 22:14:45 -0400

SPOILERS…

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You are all missing some interesting points. It was 3 months since the plane crash. But’s Mark living will said 30 days after coma… what happened between the plane crash and day 60?

I asked my daughter this - does Mark really seem like the kind to have a Living Will? Would Mark have a living will unless there was a reason?